[This reflection by Helen Ruffhead was published in the weekly news bulletin of Horley Baptist Church, 04/Jan/2026]
The month January is named after the Roman God Janus who had two faces, symbolising the ability to look both forward and backward. It is often a time for reflecting on the past and contemplating the future, but therein lies the danger. All too often the biggest disturbers of my peace are regret for past mistakes and fears for the future.
It is easy to think that God wants us to keep apologising for the sins and mistakes of the past, but once we have repented and confessed our sins and done what we can to put things right, I believe we are meant to let go of the guilt and shame and enjoy his forgiveness.
A number of years ago, someone who had bullied me as a child apologised to me. I was glad that they acknowledged the harm they had done, but assured them of my forgiveness. When several years later they again expressed remorse, I was dismayed that they were still unable to forgive themselves and longed for them to find peace. God’s love is infinitely greater than mine, so how much more must he long for us to forgive ourselves and enjoy his grace.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past
Isaiah 43 v18 [NIVUK]
Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
Romans 8 v1 [NIVUK]
Looking to the future presents an even bigger challenge, especially in these uncertain times. At present I am facing the prospect of drastic cuts to my sons’ care support hours and feel fearful for their future, but need to trust that God will take care of them, as he has in the past.
The hymn “Amazing Grace” has a verse which is sadly missing from the modern version. It goes as follows:
Through many dangers, toils and snares I have already come.
‘tis grace has brought me safe thus far and grace will lead me home.
John Newton (1779)
Those words are a great comfort and help to give me the courage to face whatever lies in the future before my sons and I finally reach our heavenly home.
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